I don't think i can be that strong as i thought. I just wanna hide, comfort, lie down and die, rather than taking all full of shit to fill up my half a life for money, work like a slave, taking order like a dog, smile like a crooke, fake as hell knows what. I don't want to be like all of them, and i do not need to be. I live for myself and not for every other that thinks i should. I live for my loves one, i spare time with my love one, i cheer and i kept love for them, and i should. Not like this, with half of my life wasted here, still i have to pretend that i am happy, that i can take up shit, that i can be strong and change who i used to be. I am not, and i do not want to change that. I am who i am and so what. I just need to catch a breath and get out of here. I don't need any promotion, i don't need any pay raise, i do not need either transfer to whatever country. I just need my life back. I just need myself be back and just back. I had had enough though it just started and i do not have to take no more.
They came in bunches, came in a team;
Made me feels like stupid, like a pig;
Off nowhere, know nothing;
This is just the beginning, why would I feel like running, why would I had tears of crying;
It isn't worth the shit for weakening;
Everything just had began, and I wanted myself to begone;
Toughen up, cheers up, hang on, hold up boy;
When all the shit strikes, there is one bigger one coming right after;
Worst of all ever that will passed over;
Sunshine will be waiting ahead of you;
Fake a smile, you had to do, Fake an act like they did;
Says a fuck in every word you spit;
Or stay fucked up in the shit feelings.